Just need a moment

 I had started to believe, quite some time ago, that the less you had was supposed to make it easier to obtain happiness. The less you take for granted makes you feel good to obtain anything...


Right now I'm wondering if perhaps that is me just trying to endure. Perhaps I'm feeling so trapped and ready to cry and scream that I feel I should have less and less so that I can 'obtain happiness' easier and easier. 


I know I'm upset and probably shouldn't speak out loud, or type, but...I feel like I need to be heard sometimes. I stop myself from getting angry often, I stop and breathe for patience...I hold in what I'm feeling because...


I just feel like such an insignificant spec. 


I try to help honestly everyday. I try to keep in mind what my actions or words may mean to another. 

Perhaps sometimes I feel like I don't get that in return...that my dedication is hardly returned back. Yet, I live to the fullest! I told myself to live, when I could not die! 

I will not let this get to me, I will be fine...dandy...

This insignificant spec will make the best of it's existence!

I just need a moment is all...

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